The Benevolent Tyrant

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 14:05:56 GMT

My heart has escaped the bony prison I fashioned for it and while I'm here in the land of kimchi and dark eyes, it beats slowly, drying out in the hot sun of the south. The morning I realized it was missing I couldn't stop thinking about the emptiness, worried infection and vagrants would settle into the cavity, but by lunch I had forgotten the pain, and by dinner, I had stashed so many odds and ins in the convenient little hole that I had forgotten what used to be there. Now I'm worried what will happen when I head back to the hot sun and humid summers with blonde hair.

Sat, 09 May 2009 12:10:49 GMT

"...We have made a covenant with death, and with hell are we at agreement; when the overflowing scourge shall pass through, it shall not come unto us: for we have made lies our refuge, and under falsehood have we hid ourselves..."

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 13:27:49 GMT

I'm a lonely dragon shut up in his cave, his hoard slowly tarnishing and rusting away beneath his weight. Smoke is slowly rising from my lungs and passing over my dry, crackled lips and when I cough it sounds like the rumblings of distant thunder. I am large and mighty, possessed of a thick hide and my heart long ago burned away. Flames lick their away around my bones and my blood could fuel flames tonight.

Come back to me, I'm lonely. I'll let you into my cave without so much as a roar, and when inside and comfortable, lulled by my rhythmic breathing and resting your head on my chest, I'll set you aflame with the same blazing fire that churns inside of me.

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 01:38:57 GMT

My Personality


Neuroticism	65
Extraversion	14
Openness to Experience	32
Agreeableness	3
Conscientiousness	1

You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits. You are not interested in the arts and do not display aesthetic sensitivity. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered.

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The best UGG Boots.

Graduate School

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 18:22:50 GMT

So, I'll be able to lose my sanity while poring over dusty tomes and ancient clay tablets.

http://nelc.osu.edu

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 01:13:34 GMT

"You are beautiful as Tirzah, my love, comely as Jerusalem, terrible as an army with banners. Turn away your eyes from me, for they disturb me..."

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 23:17:12 GMT

"On the second night I had a dream, and behold, there came up from the sea an eagle that had twelve feathered wings...And I looked, and behold, he spread his wings over all the earth, and all the winds of heaven blew upon him,...And I saw how all things under heaven were subjected to him."

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 19:52:02 GMT

Seminar: Philosophy of Language
Seminar: Sociology of Apocalypticism
Logic 1
Justice
Advanced Zooarch Independent Study
Gender, Race, Class

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:28:38 GMT

""They will die of deadly diseases. They will not be mourned or buried but will be like refuse lying on the ground. They will perish by sword and famine, and their dead bodies will become food for the birds of the air and the beasts of the earth."

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 04:12:28 GMT

"In that day each of you will invite his neighbor to sit under his vine and fig tree"

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 04:06:03 GMT

"Our skin is hot as an oven,
feverish from hunger."

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 03:57:20 GMT

"They are wild waves of the sea, foaming up their shame; wandering stars, for whom blackest darkness has been reserved forever."

I feel embarrassed and small.

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 02:38:19 GMT

So, I read the message. That feeling when the hair raises on your neck? I get it. I feel a rush of heat up into my brain pan, my eyes lose focus and stare out, and I notice that I'm holding my breath and exhale. I look down. I'm feeling embarrassed. This is me remembering all those times as a child when I felt inadequate, foolish, out of place. This is a larger portion of me than you might realize. It's how I just felt when I realized I was being a nuisance. The same feeling I get when I begin to doubt my place in whatever system I'm currently residing.

I wish I had a map of this terrain, but all my previous adventures and quests and missions were met with land mines and explosions. I've managed to cross more or less terrain on differing occasions, but it all ends in my losing a leg and taking a train to the rear-lines to recover.

I've got nothing else to spill to you people.

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 04:58:44 GMT

I have no focus. My browser is open with tabs pointing to an article on Indo-Iranians, Cetacean Intelligence, an Ebay page with Meso-American archaeology books, and I'm thinking about how to write two research proposals, one dealing with the signs of butchery and intentional use on Terrapene carolina (that's the Eastern Box Turtle), and one seeking grant money in order to fund a dig of an historical cabin site behind the parking deck on campus.

I'm listening to a band I just discovered, I'm trying to figure out what it is I'm going to write my Senior Seminar paper on (the one I haven't started, and the one that has a rough-draft due on Tuesday of next) as well as contemplating my presentation on Hopwell and Hopewellian labor dynamics and the stress of mound-building on social and dietary systems.

To top this all off...I'm writing this. I need focus.

Any advice?

300

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 23:45:11 GMT

Was a good movie.

hippias

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 04:01:35 GMT

there are moments, brief ones, when i regret being a traitor.

belated

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 22:03:27 GMT

crush . !

so MUCH brighter.

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:38:58 GMT

vodka is better than sober. it's cheap. it's painless. it's somewhat tasteless. and you know what? things are so much brighter.

from seeds

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 01:58:15 GMT

I'm losing steam like a worn out locomotive.

Vespasian

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 04:00:23 GMT

Woe is me. Me thinks I'm turning into a god.

jeremiah

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 20:35:47 GMT

there is...a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I am weary with holding it in

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 00:31:45 GMT

Quiver. It's angry.

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 06:34:44 GMT

Things changed:

ANT 4550 - Senior Seminar in Anthropology
ANT 2220 - Prehistory of Southern Appalachian
P&R 3010 - Old Testament Prophets
ANT 3200 - Zooarchaeology
GER 1020 - Beginning German II

aunt mae

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 22:53:51 GMT

another one bites the dust, huh?

it's a dangerous thing, being a member of a family who tend to all bear children in their mid to late 30's. You see, what happens is this - they all die before you can get to know them.

unhappy

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 07:48:00 GMT

It's just another day. It's 2:45. My arms grew weak and the firmament tumbled from my shoulders.

I have become very tired.