I feel embarrassed and small.
So, I read the message. That feeling when the hair raises on your neck? I get it. I feel a rush of heat up into my brain pan, my eyes lose focus and stare out, and I notice that I'm holding my breath and exhale. I look down. I'm feeling embarrassed. This is me remembering all those times as a child when I felt inadequate, foolish, out of place. This is a larger portion of me than you might realize. It's how I just felt when I realized I was being a nuisance. The same feeling I get when I begin to doubt my place in whatever system I'm currently residing.

I wish I had a map of this terrain, but all my previous adventures and quests and missions were met with land mines and explosions. I've managed to cross more or less terrain on differing occasions, but it all ends in my losing a leg and taking a train to the rear-lines to recover.

I've got nothing else to spill to you people.